Merry Christmas

Well it's been very stressful to say the least. Dealing with the wait for results, coping with the pain still, not knowing...not wanting to know, finding out that someone I thought of as a friend thought I was making all this up. That really pissed me off, as these are real serious threats to my health I felt I had to justify myself by clearly stating that my GP was the one that reacted quickly to my initial marker. I am carrying on in complete agony, I am taking medication for my anxiety and depression caused by the chronic symptoms that I have. Having to talk to my children and my Mum to explain that I have had the cancer marker show up, is not something I would wish on anyone. To look at my grandchildren and pray that my prayers would be answered. So someone thought I was making this shit up, be in my shoes at that point. I know through this experience who will be there if I ever needed them, and to them I say thank you.
So after a 3 week wait I came to the conclusion that I wouldn't receive my results until after Christmas. I really wanted to know so we could take Christmas on the chin, but I also didn't want to know as I was terrified of having bad news. But Christmas eve I got a letter from the hospital saying that my results were now with my GP and I would now receive an appointment from my consultant to discuss my results. I decided to ring my GP to find out the results. When I got the call back I was so scared this could change the course of 2015 dramatically. YES TOTALLY BENIGN, good grief I was in shock, it took a while for it to sink in but yes 2nd cancer scare over and done with. I still have a 3rd one to deal with as the polyps in my womb could be the thing that is giving me the original marker for cancer, at the moment the marker is stable. This procedure will take place in the new year, but at least I won't need to wait for the results for that as they will examine the biopsies immediately.

Today is Christmas day and I have not been in the running groove at all, but today is virtual running day for charity. So Santa suit on, runners on, time to hit the pavement. My husband got his bike out and rode alongside me,  it was a lovely blue sky cold day but a bit windy. We completed our distance and did the santa selfie with our medals in hands.
Spending time with the family for dinner, relaxing afterwards with my hubby. Christmas day is done and dusted, my 1st run in 3 weeks is done, so it's onwards into 2015 hopefully my all clears will be 3 in a row. I know that for so many people these all clears don't happen, as I know only too well. I never take for granted good health or choices, I am dedicated to raising awareness of the dreadful disease, I do for charity as I can. One day the all clears will out number the 'I'm sorry' and in the meantime I will remain forever grateful to those who sent me messages wishing me well.

I wish you a very merry Christmas and a safe and well 2015. Catcha on the flipside.