Never thought a day would come where my mojo for running would completely leave me. I can't really put my finger on it either, I am waiting results coming back at the moment, this is really playing on my mind. My every waking thought is negative and not future positive, I cannot wait to be home whenever I go out, I feel like I am lying to people's faces when they ask how I am and the words are so routine "I'm doing great thanks, how are you ?". I feel it unnecessary to worry many more people with a nothing at the moment, when we have no answers yet ourselves. I thought knowing that there was a problem was stressful but this feels worse completely in hiatus, paused.
The pain is just as bad as before, which I didn't expect. I thought by having this thing removed that my pain at least would subside, but this appears not to have happened. So my running has taken a dip as well as other aspects of motivation.
At least my running hiatus means I can get round to other jobs like getting the Christmas decorations up, spending more time with those I love. We also have new little pets, who don't seem too put off by their home representing a disco. Our rabbits have settled in nicely, one of them has a definite taste for wallpaper and the other one likes to pretend he has no concept of jumping. We are looking forward to Christmas it's a special time for us, as we get to spend lots of time together as a family. No rushing around just rest and lots of food and probably too much booze and lots of Christmas movies. I hope we have our results before the festive period at least then we will know what the New Year will mean for us, as a family.
Enjoy the weekend all, keep wrapped up warm.
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